friends

what is friends????? it seems easier to pronounce but it is hard to explain deeply.. everyone in this world have mine, a friend that always be with us in hardest and happy time... a friend that can lend her or he shoulder for you to cry on. i have a sad story to tell u guys for what ive been experienced and through is. ermm, yeah I have a friend a close one..very2 close.. everyday we text after class..even we r in same class pn we still text after class.. we r sharing mostly our story to each other.I trust you n u trust me.. for about 2 years we have been together and all her problems will be mine too.. at that time, F( her ) was having a bad and complicated time and Im the one that helping her to solve her probs. Im just trying my best to make her happy.. yeah. but we not stay together at that time. then she decided to move due to some probs with her housemate which is my classmate and also my gang.. then she asked me to stay with her bcoz she said she will be alone and I said that ill think about that first, but bcoz I love her as my friend i decided to stay with her.. and at that time I just wanna make her happy and never feesl that she's alone..we stay at one apartment nearby uni ..3 of us including my housemat yg dulu... at the beginning she said that shes not confortable with another one which is I( my housemate and classmate ) but F xclose pn ngn I nie then ill be the middle person la.. so, its hard for me jugak btween my housemate n her.. but then alhamdulillah they managed to be together at the end..and at the same time I see the change btween us.. hard to explain but just to note here people's changing over the time.. and I realized that... and at the end of sem I decided to move one from that apartment.. and yet I still remember what F says to me : u will never be alone, i will b with you..dont worry..ill come to visit you.. then Im happy bcoz In have her.. but it seems like Im being cheated by her.all her sayings is actually tipu.. and I just keep quiet and make my own life.. alone starting this sem and people ask me why??? what can I say..this is not what I want.. and F have someone that close to her now..thanks god I still have a friend that be with me itupun xslalu..but its okay..Im fine with that..Byk benda yg make me feel pain inside..deeply in my heart.. i wanna let go everything... and I want to forget all things that make me feels in this way... to F if you know what exactly I feel now.. huhuhuuh..but u never know.. I understand u have ur own life but remember one thing appreciate what he or she have done to you before this.. thank you for giving me a beautiful memories..I will never forget those moments..thanks for eveything and I hope you will success in eveything you do.. bcoz U will be the one of my best friend..

salam....

him

if i ever meet u again, i just wanna ask you how are u and hows life? thats all i wanna hear from him. and how is your wife or fiancee or bla bla bla.. enough for me to know this.. heehhee... hey sc, u know what i miss you damn much.. seriously I wanna be with you all the time, to be with you in a hardest or happy moments. I just can say that me still thinking of you and still love you. bye!

Ramadhan

Ramadhan tiba lagi kawan2. shad sangat la excited menyambut puasa kali ini.. bulan puasa la yg plg best compared to bulan2 laen.. heheh.. why because xde evil.. sotak rasa takut sgt kan. hehe, boleh stay up sampai lewat2 malam kan??? hmmm, at the same time nak RAYA kawan2...!!! sape yg xnak clebrate kan raya? heheheh...okay2..
nanti shad update lg blog nie utk tatapan sape2 la..

-NSR-

my wishes

You are very loved. Everyone finds you a welcoming, warm person. They look to you for advice and comfort, and someone to just have a good time with. Your personality is seen as cliché and average, but in truth, you have talents and skills and ideas that no one has thought of before. You are someone with style. You are good with colours, and you know how to color people's worlds and minds to your way. You think new relationships are a colouring book, to fill them in with fulfilling conversations and meetings. You may seem nice and perfect and beautiful, you have a policy of "forgive but never forget". You always remember your enemies if you have any, and you know where to steer. Sometimes, when you're completely lost, you are dependent on friends for help. You hope they'll be there for you, but sometimes you fear that they won't be. That is something you are afraid of. You are ready to give, but you are also ready to accept. To many, it seems like you change you personality just for different people, but in fact, you are the one thing that's not changing. Other people grow on you, and grow fond of you, not the other way around. You are always yourself, and you are definite. Sometimes I just want to be myself without any influences from others but sometimes I don’t. I just wanna be loved and that guys is so much appreciate me as what I am..Thats all I want from that guy. I just hope that he understand me well and should be able to turn me when I did wrong. Where can I find that guy in this world? When i think I have met someone but he is not mine and not to suitable for me.. so, what else should I do? I felt like passing out and for me now, let jodoh come sendiri and I will wait for that time to come and I want to see who is that guy is actually for me.... everyone is waiting for that time jugak kan?