friends

what is friends????? it seems easier to pronounce but it is hard to explain deeply.. everyone in this world have mine, a friend that always be with us in hardest and happy time... a friend that can lend her or he shoulder for you to cry on. i have a sad story to tell u guys for what ive been experienced and through is. ermm, yeah I have a friend a close one..very2 close.. everyday we text after class..even we r in same class pn we still text after class.. we r sharing mostly our story to each other.I trust you n u trust me.. for about 2 years we have been together and all her problems will be mine too.. at that time, F( her ) was having a bad and complicated time and Im the one that helping her to solve her probs. Im just trying my best to make her happy.. yeah. but we not stay together at that time. then she decided to move due to some probs with her housemate which is my classmate and also my gang.. then she asked me to stay with her bcoz she said she will be alone and I said that ill think about that first, but bcoz I love her as my friend i decided to stay with her.. and at that time I just wanna make her happy and never feesl that she's alone..we stay at one apartment nearby uni ..3 of us including my housemat yg dulu... at the beginning she said that shes not confortable with another one which is I( my housemate and classmate ) but F xclose pn ngn I nie then ill be the middle person la.. so, its hard for me jugak btween my housemate n her.. but then alhamdulillah they managed to be together at the end..and at the same time I see the change btween us.. hard to explain but just to note here people's changing over the time.. and I realized that... and at the end of sem I decided to move one from that apartment.. and yet I still remember what F says to me : u will never be alone, i will b with you..dont worry..ill come to visit you.. then Im happy bcoz In have her.. but it seems like Im being cheated by her.all her sayings is actually tipu.. and I just keep quiet and make my own life.. alone starting this sem and people ask me why??? what can I say..this is not what I want.. and F have someone that close to her now..thanks god I still have a friend that be with me itupun xslalu..but its okay..Im fine with that..Byk benda yg make me feel pain inside..deeply in my heart.. i wanna let go everything... and I want to forget all things that make me feels in this way... to F if you know what exactly I feel now.. huhuhuuh..but u never know.. I understand u have ur own life but remember one thing appreciate what he or she have done to you before this.. thank you for giving me a beautiful memories..I will never forget those moments..thanks for eveything and I hope you will success in eveything you do.. bcoz U will be the one of my best friend..

salam....